THE LIFE REIMAGINED-MY COVID-19 EXPERIENCE.
When I first learned of the Coronavirus in November 2019, I thought it so remote to us. I never foresaw myself in the midst of a complete lockdown, relentlessly praying we see another day.
It was not until I found myself paralysed with fear weeks before the first national lockdown in Lesotho, which I heavily advocated for. I was afraid for myself and my family. My mother, my sisters, my friends. The question that constantly played in my mind was, who would die first and how would the remaining people handle it, the dark imaginings of one of my sisters in a casket, or the thought of having to ask them to sit down while I expressed that we had just become orphaned, and to know that in that moment we could not comfort each other.
I am one person who believes death is not finite and that we must embrace the time shared with our loved ones on this earth until their time of transition came. These are the same words of comfort I have been using to comfort all my friends who suffer loss at this time of apprehension, rigidity and uncertainty, where distancing yourself is the biggest show of love you can give.
The inverse is that the pandemic gave me, a much needed break, my mental health was frayed from the tumultuous carousel called life. I have learnt to see money as a resource not a part of the self, acknowledging that troubled times are better with a full belly and the lights on. I know that family is important, that the unconditional love shows itself when our breath is paramount not what you can spend and accomplish.
I have also suffered a lot of self-doubt, my inability to interact with people has made me believe a little less in my professional abilities, but in the same vein, I have had time to think deeply about my role in this world, who I really am and what I bring to this existence. I have learnt a few things; move forward in faith not fear, be kind to yourself, love yourself the best way you know how and to communicate it very intentionally to those who matter to you, silence and solitude is the only portal for true self-awareness. You cannot love people at your expense, it leaves you vain and bitter. If we truly believe in the human race and sing from the same book, there is a chance to salvage the human experience beyond this pandemic. Open and honest communication is the only way to forge lasting relationships using empathy, kindness and eloquence.
Covid-19 has positively impacted my personal growth and I know that world reimagined may be the world we need to propel our souls to meet the full human experience, understanding that we are one big family and that the survival of one is paramount for the survival of all. We all have a place in this world and we are indeed our brothers’ keeper.